Monday, January 7, 2013

Tis So Sweet to Trust in Jesus

This is the 7th of January- and today has been flatly awesome. I like, seriously have no words for everything that has happened today! We'll start off with the mundane and move to the miraculous, how about that?
So today was the first day of classes in the Spring Semester- my last semester for my Associates in Fine Arts - Art. Yes, I will [if God so wills] soon be a college grad! I'm so excited! But anyway. British Lit is the only class I have to take this semester, and we're starting off the semester in Beowulf! I'm so excited! I LOVE Beowulf!!! I really hadn't expected to get to do Beowulf, it seemed to good to be true. There's the mundane.
Now, Regarding the miraculous- I'm fully funded for my trip to East Asia! I can't but hardly believe it! I don't know why I'm so surprised- really, I don't. I knew God would come through- I KNEW IT! I always said it, I've been praying for it, I've been telling everyone "God will provide!" -but I never expected his providence to be so soon or so full and so sweet! I'd almost expected it to be a last minute rescue from the jaws of defeat on the 30th or the 31st of this month- not on the 7th!!! I'm completely floored! I mean, this is beyond everything that I'd ever expected! I prayed that God would provide, and while praying I told God that I knew he was going to completely blow my mind with the way he was going to provide- He's amazing at doing things that I didn't expect- and I totally didn't expect this! I've never felt so much like a daughter at a surprise party, whose dad just rolled out the best present ever! I mean, WOW! No way could I have done this. God is SO good.
This, of course, leads me to a different thought: It's easy to praise God when things are good- Would I still have praised Him if he didn't come through? Truth be told, I often have problems with just Praising God when times are good. It's a matter of surrender. When I said on the first that I surrendered again, I literally did. When I'm not surrendered I am actively hiding from God, I understand that. I think that's something that everyone does.
Will I praise Him in the bad times too? Will I praise him when it gets tough? Well, I hope so. I would be a horrible prophet- my foresight is pathetic. Right now, I think I could praise him in the bad times- because I'm already focused and ready. If I let myself get caught off guard it would be more difficult. If I go back to passive living it would be more difficult. ...But generally, over my life, it has been in the bad times that I've turned back to God, and so it's been in the bad times that I've praised him most. I'm pathetic, but that's the way I am. This is more surprising to me: that I correctly responded in my praise this time.
Trusting in Jesus is the sweetest of all things. He's good, and most worthy of praise.


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